Hello Again

Hello Again

 

 

It has been some time I know.. since I don't write that often I feel when I do I'm going to be just recapping all the adventure that Jake and I have take since the last time I got it out. Also I honestly don't care about spelling or punctuation. Its not something that really maters to me since this is more for me that anyone else. So Ha.

 

 

Jake turned 27 on Aug 22. He isn't one to celebrate. I tend to go a bit overboard. So for his birthday we just had a BBQ at the house and I got him Sirius XM because he always hated the commercials while he is driving. Well he hooked it up in my car because he didn't want it in his work truck and so it stayed... (I'm such a spoiled brat!) I will make it up to him this year... I'm going to plan something wonderful. Not sure just what yet, but I will make it  perfect!

 

 

 

On September 15th we celebrated our 1 year anniversary by going to eat at  a mini western town called Raw Hide. The food was alright. and the town was overflowing with people celebrating some Mexican holiday. I'm not sure which so it wasn't that fun. However, any time I spend with Jake I am overjoyed. I don't know how that man still makes me have butterflies in my stomach to this day. He is incredible! It was a great time with the man of my dreams. I wouldn't have changed a single thing about our first year together.

 

In October I took a week off of work and Jake and I took a mini vaca/honeymoon up to the mountains in my families cabin. I was so windy and cold we didn't get out of the cabin much that it ok because that means I got all of his attention. I must say I was so sick of card and board games by the end though. Jake had bought me a keg cooker earlier in the year and we got to try it out on this trip. Money well spent it was delicious! Defiantly going to be using that bad boy again!

 

Thanksgiving was a split between the families this year. My parents came down and stayed with us as well as my brothers and their cute families. Jakes family also came down so we have dinner with them first and them again with my family. WAY to much food. Sharing between two families is way to stressful trying to be far and spend enough time with each is just not fun. We plan on splitting it up from now on. So not worth the stress and families being upset with us. Christmas was much of the same we spent the majority of the time with my family and stayed in SJ. We did the family parties over in Eagar Christmas eve and the afternoon on Christmas day. That's the one holiday that I don't see us ever pleasing the families because we will always have to leave. Get as Jake would say "It is what it is" they will get over it. :) New Years was fun we just stayed home and I think we may have even fallen asleep before midnight. We have turned into such a old couple!

 

Valentines day was pretty basic for us as well. Jake was asked to ride some mules for a guy up in Eagar who was scared to ride it himself. So we went down there and he rode two mules and the next day we went to an auction where he rode them again to get them sold. I think I love mules now. Their ears are just so cute. I think I just need a pet and Jake would agree. but as a surprise after the auction Jake took me to Jared's and bought me the band to my ring.. Can you say sweetheart!!!! He is so wonderful to me. He knew I wanted one but wouldn't actually have to guts to buy one since they are so expensive. I just love him! I got him a skill saw he has been wanting as well and had that and some cadies on the bed for him when he got home. I love the way his face lights up when he sees tools. I wish I could buy him one everyday just to see it!

 

So Jakes dad has gone through a stem cell transplant and him and Blanche stayed with us during his procedure and recovery. They were with us for around a month and a half almost two. It was so sad to see such a strong man go through such a painful situation and be taken down so much! He is doing so much better and they are back in Eagar now. We are so happy he is on the way to getting better and back to his old self. My husband is so strong and resilient to watch that happen to his dad. I know he was so concerned even though I know he never shows his emotions he was scared.  I wish I could be as strong as he is and give comfort to others in spit of your discomfort. Jake is such a I guess role model for me and how I want to be.

 

As I've already mentioned Jake and I have been trying to a baby for about 10 months now. trying multiple things like being healthier, homeopathic remedies, prayer. so far nothing. I know Heavenly father will bless us with a family sooner or later. He know best when we are ready. ( I hope its sooner rather than later.) This has to be the most emotional thing I have gone through as far as I just don't feel like I am normal. I feel broken. How can all these women around me have these wonderful healthy babies that bless them so immensely and here I am struggling. I know I'm not the only one at all but here in my world I feel like I am. Jake is so supportive and loving and he cares for me when he knows I'm about to hit the wall. Jake has given the ok to try out Clomid. This month will be the first dosage ill be taking. Crossing my fingers. I really have been trying to just tell myself that everything happens for a reason and we are supposed to go down this path. That seems to really calm me down a lot and the fact that adoption is always an option too. so either way we will have a family.

 

So far that is the only things I have to report. Most of our days are consumed with work and sleep. I will try and check in more often

 



New Adventures

A lot of things have happened since the last time I wrote so here ya go I'll break it down!






1. Jake knows that I get a little out of control when it comes to birthdays. SOOOO being the amazing husband he is he went all out for mine... first off he spoiled me and we went shopping. He bought me hiking shoes a new cookware set and other kitchen gadgets I've been wanting... He also knows how much i have been wanting to go camping and hiking and fishing so for a long weekend he took me up to my family's cabin along with my family and we had a wonderful camping trip and went hiking and fishing on Black River... ( I caught the biggest fish;) ) all thanks to him!

2. We went up to Lyman Lake with my family and camped out and had a great lake weekend (I actually wake boarded) He of course is already good at it... Like every thing else... We also watched the Eagar fire works with Jake's family and hung out with his side of the family!



3. This last weekend my parents rented our family a house at Roosevelt. It was a fun trip and we had a blast... Jake unfortunately came back with his entire forehead being a big blister and shoulders as red as a tomatoes. Hes been peeling all week... It was a good time with family

4. This one is not a fun one but hey this is supposed to be my diary so i feel it should be mentioned... I was diagnosed with PCOS which basically means I may have a hard time getting pregnant. We want a family and were planning on trying sometime this year or next so that news is kinda hard to grasp. Also its been really hard with all our friends and family getting pregnant and being surrounded by it.. Don't get me wrong I am so happy for them and I really cant wait to spoil those wonderful blessings, but it just kinda hurts that I may not get to share those feelings and experience any time soon and I have a hard time with every conversation being that topic. I have been keeping it a secret because I don't want pitty. Jealousy really is a green eyed monster. Jake reassures me everyday good things come to those who wait and God has other plans for us.

Jake just had surgery today he has a pretty bad hernia and is pretty miserable right now and he will be out for a couple weeks because his job is nothing but lifting heavy things and I wont let that happen :)
I hate to see him like this. It is very hard knowing you really cant do anything for him but let him know that he's loved and ill do what ever I can.

5. Jake is going to be starting his own business with his friend Nate the beginning of Sept. They do the restoration after floods and fires... This means that we will be getting more money and can put more towards our saving... They are so good at there jobs that they already have a bunch of company's that are going to be hiring them to do work... I'm so beyond proud of my husband and his work ethic. He is a wonderful provider and best friend. Ive never know a harder worker than him and coming from a small town we know what a hard days work is... He truly is the biggest blessing in my life. I thank God for him every day and cant wait to spend the rest of our loves together.. He is my ONE!

Well that is all for know... Stay tuned for more thrilling entries!

How it all began...

Jake and I have been married about 7ish months now and basically I want to start this blog as more of a journal of our lives. So I will just have to start with when we were dating... Ill only put in the good part and skip the just day to day...
How we were introduced was a bit strange I wanted to meet a guy worth my time not the same old college kid just out to party... so over the Forth of July Lacie and I were just hanging out and she was on facebook and i basically pointed to the screen and said "I want him!" and there it was a picture a bearded man that just looked like so much fun and had grow up literally 30 min from me and we had never met... Lacie being the best friend that she is gave him my number for me... a few days later i got a text and we started talking... The first chance we had to meet was at the 24th in SJ because he was living in Eagar and i was in Mesa so ever excited as i was drove up to meet this hunk of a man... The day we met was one of the most awkward days ever. We planed to met up at the rodeo were we was doing a few events.. well Lacie and i walked right up to him we shook hands and he said "This is Brandis" so we stood there not talking for a while so i started talking to other people that were around and he randomly would rope my feet then walked away... Yup that was our grand introduction... So i automatically though well he must not like me so me and Lacie left to go close some gate at there property...
Later on that day i got a text from Jake asking if I'd like to go to the dance with him... I though what the heck might as well and said yes... I was a wreak waiting for him to come pick me up i was beyond nervous till he pulled up and i just because calm.... We went to the dance accompanied by Wes who I talked to the whole night because Jake was again silent. After the dance he drove me home gave me a hug and he was off on his way... that night he text me once he got home and asked if i would like to go to the snowflake rodeo and dance with him the next night and of course i said yes who could resist that beard. so he came and picked me up (mind you that my entire family was standing in the yard when he pulled up kinda intimidating for a real first date) and off we went, and of course he was still scared so we met up with his friends Brian and Don as soon as we pulled into town. I didn't mind i figured if hew quiet again at least i can talk to someone right... The rodeo was fun and the dance was even better man he could dance so it was a complete blast. we said our good bye's to Brian and don and off we went to take me home... Here comes the good part! We were about half the way to SJ right before Concho when Jake started to slow the truck down me being blind i just though o there must be a animal in the road well it was something but not an animal it turns out it is a drunk girl with flaming orange hair with no shoes on... Jake being the nice guy he is offers to take her back into town and drop her off at her ex's house per her request... well she didn't remember the actual way to get there so about 20 min of driving around we decided to drop her off at the circle k... all the while she was telling us about her family and boy was that a mess... She finally asked our names and was asked bout us well i didn't want to give her our real names or anything so i said my name was Rachel and his was Mark we were high school students and sweethearts i made up a whole long story which she lapped up (at this point Jake was just giggling) so she finally was off our hands and we headed back and about where we had picked up up we noticed a pair of socks on the side of the road... we just looked at each other and started laughing... He dropped me off with another hug and was on his way...
we went back and forth me going up there for a weekend him coming down here for about 3 weeks after that... He was absolutely amazing in every way was how i thought of him... around that time he had called his old boss and gotten his job back and moved down to the valley... we went on dating for around 4 months.
In mid November Jake dropped a bombshell on me and broke up with me without explanation other than i feel we need a break. I wasn't going to stand for that so i told him i don't do breaks i do break ups and that how it went until about 3 months later when we randomly saw each other at Demin and Diamonds a country bar that we went to dance... After that we texted briefly until i asked if he wanted to hang out. He said yes and after that one day we were back together every night but i wouldn't call myself his girlfriend after what he pulled specially without still explaining why. One night i made him sit down and we talked it all out and finally i understood why even though i felt it was a complete wrong way to go about it... He felt that he loved me but wanted to make sure it was real so we needed to be apart for a while... after that night it was all over i was hooked yet again... Sorry the story isn't very exciting but hey it cant all be action packed...
We continued dating till June 4th when we were going to pick something up for his brother at his cousins house. and got pulled over... This was a brand new beginning for us this was the day he asked me to marry him... How he did it was when we were on the side of the road looking for registration he was pulled to the back of the truck and left me there to find it.. well once i looked back to see what was happening Jake was gone and the cop was staring into his car... my immediate thought was crap hes getting arrested... well then the cop proceeds over to my door opens it and asked for my license which i hand over and asks "what is your relation to this mane?" I said "hes my boyfriend." Then he said "Do you know that he has warrants out for his arrest?" At this point i started to get mad and as many know i don't really control my temper well so i said in a very snappy tone "What for?" and his answer threw me over the edge "Back child support!" i was furious how could he have kept that from me and how could he not of been taking care of his kids was all that could go though my mind. the cop then said "can you follow me to the back of the truck please" so i got out ready to let loose on Jake the minute i saw him until we cleared that back of the truck and i saw Jake kneeling there with the ring.. It took me a minute to calm down and collect myself enough to understand the situation. Jake came over hugged me and put the ring on my finger and it turns out that the cop was Jake's cousin and we were right infront of there house so a few other cousins piled out and congratulated us... after that we went to dinner were he finally said... "You never did say yes?" and he was right i hadn't so i said "yeah ill marry you"... we let the family know that night but we enjoyed it for a week or so before we let everyone else in on what was going on...
So that is dating our story...