Hello Again

Hello Again

 

 

It has been some time I know.. since I don't write that often I feel when I do I'm going to be just recapping all the adventure that Jake and I have take since the last time I got it out. Also I honestly don't care about spelling or punctuation. Its not something that really maters to me since this is more for me that anyone else. So Ha.

 

 

Jake turned 27 on Aug 22. He isn't one to celebrate. I tend to go a bit overboard. So for his birthday we just had a BBQ at the house and I got him Sirius XM because he always hated the commercials while he is driving. Well he hooked it up in my car because he didn't want it in his work truck and so it stayed... (I'm such a spoiled brat!) I will make it up to him this year... I'm going to plan something wonderful. Not sure just what yet, but I will make it  perfect!

 

 

 

On September 15th we celebrated our 1 year anniversary by going to eat at  a mini western town called Raw Hide. The food was alright. and the town was overflowing with people celebrating some Mexican holiday. I'm not sure which so it wasn't that fun. However, any time I spend with Jake I am overjoyed. I don't know how that man still makes me have butterflies in my stomach to this day. He is incredible! It was a great time with the man of my dreams. I wouldn't have changed a single thing about our first year together.

 

In October I took a week off of work and Jake and I took a mini vaca/honeymoon up to the mountains in my families cabin. I was so windy and cold we didn't get out of the cabin much that it ok because that means I got all of his attention. I must say I was so sick of card and board games by the end though. Jake had bought me a keg cooker earlier in the year and we got to try it out on this trip. Money well spent it was delicious! Defiantly going to be using that bad boy again!

 

Thanksgiving was a split between the families this year. My parents came down and stayed with us as well as my brothers and their cute families. Jakes family also came down so we have dinner with them first and them again with my family. WAY to much food. Sharing between two families is way to stressful trying to be far and spend enough time with each is just not fun. We plan on splitting it up from now on. So not worth the stress and families being upset with us. Christmas was much of the same we spent the majority of the time with my family and stayed in SJ. We did the family parties over in Eagar Christmas eve and the afternoon on Christmas day. That's the one holiday that I don't see us ever pleasing the families because we will always have to leave. Get as Jake would say "It is what it is" they will get over it. :) New Years was fun we just stayed home and I think we may have even fallen asleep before midnight. We have turned into such a old couple!

 

Valentines day was pretty basic for us as well. Jake was asked to ride some mules for a guy up in Eagar who was scared to ride it himself. So we went down there and he rode two mules and the next day we went to an auction where he rode them again to get them sold. I think I love mules now. Their ears are just so cute. I think I just need a pet and Jake would agree. but as a surprise after the auction Jake took me to Jared's and bought me the band to my ring.. Can you say sweetheart!!!! He is so wonderful to me. He knew I wanted one but wouldn't actually have to guts to buy one since they are so expensive. I just love him! I got him a skill saw he has been wanting as well and had that and some cadies on the bed for him when he got home. I love the way his face lights up when he sees tools. I wish I could buy him one everyday just to see it!

 

So Jakes dad has gone through a stem cell transplant and him and Blanche stayed with us during his procedure and recovery. They were with us for around a month and a half almost two. It was so sad to see such a strong man go through such a painful situation and be taken down so much! He is doing so much better and they are back in Eagar now. We are so happy he is on the way to getting better and back to his old self. My husband is so strong and resilient to watch that happen to his dad. I know he was so concerned even though I know he never shows his emotions he was scared.  I wish I could be as strong as he is and give comfort to others in spit of your discomfort. Jake is such a I guess role model for me and how I want to be.

 

As I've already mentioned Jake and I have been trying to a baby for about 10 months now. trying multiple things like being healthier, homeopathic remedies, prayer. so far nothing. I know Heavenly father will bless us with a family sooner or later. He know best when we are ready. ( I hope its sooner rather than later.) This has to be the most emotional thing I have gone through as far as I just don't feel like I am normal. I feel broken. How can all these women around me have these wonderful healthy babies that bless them so immensely and here I am struggling. I know I'm not the only one at all but here in my world I feel like I am. Jake is so supportive and loving and he cares for me when he knows I'm about to hit the wall. Jake has given the ok to try out Clomid. This month will be the first dosage ill be taking. Crossing my fingers. I really have been trying to just tell myself that everything happens for a reason and we are supposed to go down this path. That seems to really calm me down a lot and the fact that adoption is always an option too. so either way we will have a family.

 

So far that is the only things I have to report. Most of our days are consumed with work and sleep. I will try and check in more often